Sunday, July 15, 2012
A HeartBroken Birthday......
Tomorrow, July 16th, would have been the day to celebrate a Birthday.......A Birthday for a young man, Jonathan Casedy, My Brother. He would have been 30....
Here he is with his newborn son, Anthony Aiden Casedy
Next to his son, Fishing was his passion, his obsession, his Masterwork (The Norwegian in us)
This last picture is by far my favorite........I look at the beauty God has created around him, a place where my Brother was truly happy, a place where he could forget his life of trials and tribulations. If God creates this in Nature, what must Heaven be like for him, an abundance of fishing, a place where time stands still, a place where he has no worries, a place of Peace and Joyfullness.
But as I wait to join him in the gates of Heaven, I sit here with a broken heart that seems to grow broken with each day. When he left this Earth, he took part of my Heart with him, a part that I'm not sure can be repaired, no matter the Sympathy wishes, it does not heal and I'm learning to accept that. My mind is consumed with thoughts of him all day, I have Dreams of him, I believe God's way of allowing me to visit with him. I pray every night for God to allow him to visit me in my sleep, and when he does, it's magical, in each dream, he is peaceful, he is Happy, the dreams are beyond real, he tells me he misses me and that he is so much better, that's all i can pray for.
I still cry for him, often....But he needed to go, one thing I know, God does not like to see us, His children, suffer and my Brother suffered tremendously, he is healed now, he is in his place of happiness, in the gates of Heaven......
Jonathan William Casedy July 16th 1982 - November 15th 2009
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Oh Ashley, what a terribly loving & moving post.
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain as I lost my 24 year old niece suddenly last year who only being 12 years younger was like a sister rather than a niece. I too know what you mean when you say they take a part of your heart with them.
Sending you lots of love for tomorrow.
love
Alison
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Oh dearie... Im so sorry to hear that. Your brother was such a beautiful soul and I know you will see him again. All the people we love and remember are up there, although it is so hard to live without them. Beautiful post fear.
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Oh Ashley, this has brought tears to my eyes. It sounds like you were so close to your beloved brother. He looks so peaceful on the waters and in the fishing pictures. It's so weird because I just talked with my brother today, and it has been awhile. Your brother was handsome with a beautiful smile. I an thinking of you, dear, and sending love your way. Keep dreaming sweet dreams.
ReplyDelete~Sheri at Red Rose Alley
well ash, now that i'm crying.............but only because i feel your pain. i haven't lost a brother but i have lost people who i hold so very dear. this year, two within 2 months of each other and my heart breaks. one dear friend and roommate i lost some 25 year ago and still think of her and miss her most every day. sometimes the hole that is left behind remains and reminds us of the love of the person who used to fill it.
ReplyDeleteon another note, my sister in law had the 25th annivesary of her brother's passing the other day. and leave it to a child to make things a little lighter. when they arrived at the church for the services, my niece got out of the car and announced in a loud voice....'this is NOT the beach'.
loss is a part of life, but it certainly is never an easy part. thinking of you. i too love that last picture of your brother and i think that's exactly how you should remember him....surrounded by peace and beauty.
Dearest Ashley,
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about your past loss and I can only imagine how difficult it must be for you to go through each day without him. But I know he is in a better place - happy and free with our Creator! So even though he is not here in the physical world, I'm sure his spirit watches over you - and these photos and memories of him are one to be cherished. ;) Wish I could give you a great big hug - so sending over prayers & hugs your way! Take care and have a beautiful day, my friend.
Hugs from here,
Jessie
My deepest condolences to you, my friend. Isn't it a blessing to be able to dream of the ones we have lost here on earth? It is a sweet reminder of the happy future reunion we will one day have in heaven. In the meantime, it hurts. Praying for you. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteOh how heartbreaking...I am so sorry about your brother. I can't even begin to image your pain...your words are wonderful today..GOD is good and your brother is in the best place ever! Hugs.
ReplyDeleteHello. I followed the trail here from Etsy. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Your tribute to him is beautiful. The photo of him in the stream is a wonderful way to remember him. I lost a brother last year. I know your pain. God bless.
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